Chronic illness often brings with it a whole host of medications to try and control symptoms but what happens when these medications have more side effects than helpful qualities. I wanted to give a brief history of my experience with medications and their side effects to show how much balance is needed to find something that works better than it gives side effects.
I’ve been on anti-depressants since I was 18 years old (I’m 25 now) and a lot of them worked for a period of time and then it was like my body got used to them and stopped taking notice. For me, the worst one was Citalopram, the side effects for that medication took over any good it was doing me. It gave me disturbing dreams, which happens with a lot of anti-depressants I’ve been on but this medication made the dreams so vivid and horrible that I was struggling to sleep and I was dreading when night came around. This medication also made me feel physically ill, I was nauseous and dizzy a lot of the time.
I finally found an anti-depressant that works for me which is Venlafaxine and I’ve been taking this for a few years now and the good thing is, my mental health has improved. I don’t notice many side effects with this medication other than the excessive sweating which plagues my life. As I explained in my last post, Fibro/CFS gives me very poor temperature control so the excessive sweating which comes with this medication makes that symptom a lot worse. It came down to weighing it up and for me, my mental health is way more important than some sweating. People may stare when I go out and I’m struggling to adapt to the temperature, and I’m covered in a thick sheen of sweat but my depression is under control for now and that’s what matters to me.
For a while I took Codeine to help with the pain symptoms of Fibro/CFS and I took this for longer than I should have. To begin with, it helped numb my pain a bit and it had the benefit of helping me sleep at night. The main side effect I had with this one was addiction. After a while it stopped effecting my pain at all so I increased the dose and then I began taking it more often. It soon became a habit and I was taking it just because I felt I needed it, rather than taking it for the pain. I decided to come off of it because I didn’t like that I was relying on it.
Then came Gabapentin which was a nightmare medication for me. It was supposed to help with the Fibro pain but the side effects completely outweighed any advantage it had. The first couple of months taking it, after every dose (3 times a day) I experienced horrible dizziness and nausea and it knocked me out, all I could do was sleep which didn’t help me CFS! The worst side effect for me was the weight gain, I put on about 2 stone in a matter of months and unfortunately, even after coming off of it, I haven’t managed to lose this weight because I struggle to exercise with my pain so now I am very self conscious and I regret this medication completely.
I was recommended Pregabalin after this experience which was said to have less side effects than Gabapentin and so far, this medication seems to suit me a lot better, I haven’t noticed any side effects, apart from the fact my weight seems stuck no matter what I try to lose it.
Lastly is Tramadol which is something I never wanted to take because I’d heard horror stories and it seemed like such a strong and harmful drug. But my pain, although being more stable with the Pregabalin, was still extreme at times and I had nothing to help in those moments so Tramadol was prescribed for when my pain is at it’s worst. I’ve never had a drug effect me like Tramadol does, it helps numb my worst pain but it does give me a giddy and high feeling which I don’t enjoy and the day after taking it, I’m unconscious for most of the day because it knocks me out and my whole body feels like a noodle. At the moment, I take Tramadol sparingly, only when I can’t cope so the side effects are manageable and I can put up with them.
So there is my brief medication history. I always find it interesting how different drugs effect people differently and I welcome anyone else’s experience with side effects. To me, it comes down to weighing the advantages with the disadvantages and making some compromise.