This weekend was my worst for pain in a while. It always seems to hit when I really don’t want it to. I had a family day planned on Saturday and it’s an hours drive there and an hour back. Sitting in a car for that long makes me achy at the best of times but I was already in so much pain. I didn’t want to take my pain killers because they knock me out and I wanted to have a nice day with family, not be unconscious.
I pride myself on not letting my distant relatives see how badly my CFS and Fibro affects me so it was a struggle this weekend because I couldn’t hide it. I had my tens machine attached to my back to relax the muscles because my back felt like it was cramped up and tight. I’d rubbed arnica gel onto every body part to try and control the aching. I pretty much just sat and tried to be as social as I could while feeling like my whole body was betraying me.
I never believed that you could have pain everywhere but since having fibro, I’ve been proven so wrong. My fingers and toes hurt, my shoulders hurt, my legs hurt, my arms hurt, my back hurts, my head hurts…everything is painful and it feels like my body is playing some cruel joke on me.
I have an appointment with my GP tomorrow to discuss how overwhelming the fatigue and pain has been over the past couple of months, I’m having a major flare up and it’s making my life more miserable than usual. I don’t expect to be given any major help because I’m already taking all the pain killers and staying as active as I can but it feels like I have to tell the doctor how ill I’m feeling. I have so much planned for next month so I need to get control of this flare up somehow and manage it. I wish there was some magical cure, I really do.